1st book

so i just made a book. content. layout. bindery. packaging.
i've never done that before.

in process i discovered a small slice of what must be a very large culture of book makers and bindery aficionados, tricks and treasures! what a lovely craft. and i do mean that. i feel like the world has opened up new possibilities to me.

there're some folks in life who remind me that we move across this earth receiving the information that we need, when we need it and not necessarily before that - no matter how indignant we are (ok, i am) when it seems withheld.

that's one of those fatalistic everything-happens-for-a-reason sort of perspectives, isn't it? to be honest, i embrace it often. i think i feel safer that way, as tho the threads of my life aren't just some happenstance of knots and tangles.

on the other hand, maybe the treasures are really encountered in deciphering all of those threaded messes. you know, like when we lie on our backs and think it remarkable enough to share with whoever's near by that we've just found a cloud animal drifting above us in all its precipitation-potential glory. or like as a kid, when my mom would scribble her pen upon the backside of a playbill just so i'd keep still during the boring parts. she'd tell me "find the picture," and i would love to. but she never knew what she was putting down there.

"written," "supposed to," "for a reason," i don't know. today i think the magic is in finding what's worth holding on to and learning lessons along the way. and for those like me who find security in the concept that there is something bigger than the mindchatter filling our heads, that thing about receiving info when we need it most still applies. we're smart creatures when we don't try to override everything. i think our bodies know how to tune us out and take over when it's time.

on that note there's an interesting article on the topic of implicit vs explicit learning. If you're rushed for time, do this: CTRL F (find) this phrase: Human beings sometimes falter under pressure.

Now all you hafta do is read three paragraphs to appreciate my appreciation.

Word.